I can feel you, flowing through me...

I wish I could go back in time to when you cheated on me... so I wouldn't be so bitter.
I wish I could go back in time to when you said you'd make it feel better... so I could trust easier.
I wish I could go back in time to when you said you wanted a relationship... so I could be more sensitive.
I wish I could go back in time to when you pushed me away... so I could see the lie behind your eyes.
I wish I could go back in time to when you started complimenting me, spending more time with me, saying things in my ear, knowing what to do or say to make me listen to you... so I wouldn't hate myself so much.

But if it weren't for all the douche bags in my life... I wouldn't have grown as much as I have. I wouldn't be who I am. I wouldn't have these stories to share with other in my many situations. And I wouldn't have the friends that support me no matter what stupid decision I make.

I'm glad you cheated on me... now I know forgiveness.
I'm glad you couldn't keep a promise... now I know self-preservation.
I'm glad you wanted something more... now I know that I'm not ready.
I'm glad you pushed me away... now I know the players from the real men.
I'm glad you were such a fake, jerk, idiot, and low-life... now I know what I don't want.

:)