Turning into someone I never thought I'd be.

The other day I did something I never thought I would actually do. I've thought about it. Every time I hear about it, I think of it for awhile afterwards. I want to make fun of those that do it- but secretly I wish I were them. Even though I WANTED to believe they were stooping to a level I was too good for, I knew they had the courage I lacked.
Well, I am one of them now. I can't poke fun anymore. (Am I saying "I" alot? feels like I am... *hmph*). Regardless, things are going to be different. A new chapter is starting and the pages are already turning. My story is being written!! No more footnotes, no more spell check. and no more re writes. The story is starting to flow, the plot is thickening and it's going to start getting good!
There aren't any hesitations, I'm not feeling any doubts. For the first time in a very long time all there is to feel is peace... contentment. Content with the steps being taken and confidence they are what God is having me do. As my sister said this afternoon. we have the ability to take the initiative. Well IT'S TAKEN! I'm game, I'm all in.
Ya know, I'm going to eat my words I said earlier (I could just delete it and re write it but I'm too lazy and it's really late). This isn't a new chapter, it's an entirely new book. I'm no longer the author. It's Jesus. I'm FINALLY handing over the quill and letting HIM take over. I've done a horrible job at trying to write my own story and no one is reading it. I'm more excited to read the story myself, as it's going along as opposed to read the back cover.
It's already working out pretty well... I will keep you updated... whoever "you" are. Since I don't have readers.