I feel so stupid for feeling hurt and rejected. I didn't even know the guy. But I think that makes it worse. He doesn't know me. He doesn't know my humor, my family, my friends, my desires, my call. I wasn't given the opportunity to have a chance. I know God has someone for me.... BLAH FREAKING BLAH!! I know that!! I've KNOWN that.... STOP FREAKING SAYING IT!!! all that says to me is that there's something wrong with me that I don't deserve him now. Something about me isn't good enough for him. It's not a feel good phrase. It stings. so, please stop saying it.
I don't really know if I'm ready for this. For being vulnerable- showing people "I'm ready for commitment, please see through my soul and decide from there if I'm material". How is that good for someone with already dismal self esteem.
ugh, i hate myself. goodnight.
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Jenn, you are beautiful. And you are looking at it the entirely wrong way. It is not that you were not good enough for him, it is that he was not good enough for you.
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