In the first place..

I'm not giving up.
I'm just not holding out for something that isn't going to happen. Why would I sit around waiting and hoping that he'll look my way when he's obviously too busy still thinking about his past and what he "lost"... sorry, but I'm something to gain. As well as, I'm not going to count my chickens before they hatch. Meaning- I'm not going to sit and listen to a girl go on and on about her brother and how perfect we are for each other when I've never even met the guy.
In a perfect world, a cinematic world... those are all perfect story lines for a new chick flick or a romantic comedy.. but it isn't real life. Set-ups, don't work out. Blind dates are more traumatic than beneficial, and pining is called desperate.
That's it people- I'm your breath of fresh bitterness and reality when it comes to anything "romantic"... at least... media birthed. It's painful to think... that some people (including myself) may never have that 'happy ending' that we've been told we'll have. But at the same time... it's freeing. People wonder why I don't always do my makeup or always do my hair.. because that's not real. Underneath- I'm not a even toned, flawless, bone straightened, frizz free, maximum shine person. I have break outs, my hair is a HOT mess when I don't dry it right, and my eyes aren't perfectly lined with a naturally complimenting tone to my eyes.
It gets really frustrating when people don't see that. When they expect to you hold up to this charade just to please... what?! the false eye?!?!
If someone is going to 'love' me, if a man thinks he's worth it... it will be when my hair isn't washed, I'm in my forge pants, and I just ate dinner... because yes... WOMAN DO EAT!
I am me.
no one else.
nothing more.
Just a girl, getting through life, learning the ropes, and feeling the hurt along the way. I'm not trying to do anything more than live. And that's what I'll do. Regardless of what people say, do, think, or try to impress upon me and even... who they are. Change is good, but not conformity. I don't dig it.